بیلی آیلیش

My name is Billie Eilish

Billie Eilish

My name is Billie Eilish

My name is Billie Eilish

My name is Billie Eilish

Year five

Let’s do this

I think it’s October 18th, 2017

It’s October 18th, 2018

October 18th, 2019

October 18th, 2020

Today is October 18th, 2021

I’m 15 I’m 16

I’m 17 I’m 18

I’m 19

I have 257,000

I have 63 million

407 million

675 million

I have 941 million followers

The most followed person that follows me is Chloë Grace Moretz

Katy Perry, maybe

Justin Bieber Ariana Grande

Kylie Jenner 275 million

That’s way too many followers, girl

But thanks for following me

A picture of me and Charli XCX

It’s a picture of me smiling

When I first posted a picture of my blonde hair

23,054,701

Which is ridiculous

Public? What is that? [laughs]

Well, I have not been in

at all since March 11th

Before COVID at all, like I don’t go in public anyway just because it’s a complete disaster

Gosh, that girl was going through an identity crisis

Oh, my gosh

You can see it in my eyes I mean, really

The low bun? Please

What’s going on?

My attitude used to be, “Well, I can’t go out”

You know, “I can’t go here I can’t go there”

And I used to just, like not even be able to like go to a park

or like go get food or get coffee

It freaks me out

In the last year, I have been opened up to it

I really feel grateful for that because being able to feel confident in stepping outside without a hat and a hood and glasses and a mask and a jacket and doing this or whatever, it’s so much better and you don’t have to live like that

And I realized that this year

that I don’t have to live like that

Per week, if I am going to stuff, it’s like anywhere I go

But if I’m like being cautious

and like not trying to be in everybody’s faces, that’s like I can manage my way around people without them noticing, which is cool

I didn’t use to be able to do that ‘cause my pride was too huge

I was like, “I only want to be seen if I look like myself”

[laughs] So I would like never wear anything normal

And I would wear like

full on like all of the jewelry that I owned

And my hair is blonde now

So it’s not like the only person you’ve ever seen with green hair walking by

So who could it be out of the five people?

It’s gotten a lot easier

But if I go out, I mean, it’s always gonna happen

It’s just that I’m, first of all, fine with it

And I’m very happy about it

And also, I just know how to do it now

Judge me, please [laughs]

I don’t And then one word, “fucking no”

It’s my style [laughs]

Billie Eilish parody

is my style

I’m so much more open to stuff now

So I guess I would say like

anything

goes

Any, being one word Thing, being the second word

And then goes

Period

I did that Vogue cover and it was a genre that we were doing a shoot for

It was an old kind of Hollywood lingerie kind of classic thing

And it was supposed to be like a specific aesthetic for a photo shoot

And then it was like Billie Eilish is a new style

And then people kept being like, “Wow, her new style

Like, wow, it’s so much better than the old style”

Or like, “Wow, I wish that we could have her old style back

I’m so sad that she’s just changed into this”

And it was so weird ‘cause I was like, “It’s not a new style It’s one thing I wore

And then I’m gonna wear this another day and then I’m gonna do this”

And literally, the thing that I’ve been preaching about since I first started is

wear what you want, dress how you want, act how you want, talk how you want, be how you want

That’s all I’ve ever said

It’s just being open to new things and not, you know, letting people ruin it for you

I am, for sure, a billion times more confident than both of those years

I feel like I’m probably the most confident I’ve ever been in my life

It’s true

Yeah, no, nothing will ever top that 2019 ego [scoffs] I was feeling myself That is for sure

It’s because I had been so miserable for so long that I finally wasn’t and I just never shut up about it

But I’ve been good I’ve been good

I mean, I’m starting to have like an adulthood, which is new for me

and very exciting and I have had new experiences and new people and lots of love

I don’t feel [laughs]

Lying I do

Yes [laughs] Yeah

Uh, Yep

Yeah

But I don’t fucking care I really don’t care

Like it’s like, it’s the kind of pressureAlso lying

Like it hits me and then I don’t care

Like I know and like it’s in my brain that people expect a lot from me and that they expect this and they want me to do this

This is just me trying to convince myself that I didn’t care [laughs]

Every single one Every single one

I know that I cared and I was just literally coming up with some stupid quote that would make me pretend that I didn’t care

80,000 people is way easier

than performing in front of eight people

That’s true

I used to be just filled with these like inspirational quotes,

just like ready to go all the time that I didn’t even agree with most of the time

Kind of crazy

Every time I see an interview from that period when I was like 16, I’m like, [blows raspberries] everything I said was so stupid

Like not even stupid

It just was like not what I was actually thinking

I was thinking like, “I’m overwhelmed I hate this

Everybody expects something from me

I don’t have anything to give them

I fucking suck

My jewelry is cool [laughs]

I want tattoos I want a car”

That’s all I was thinking

Like I was not thinking that stuff [laughs] Ah!

I feel a lot of pressure, but I also would say like, back then, I was more loved

I was pretty, overall, like loved, I would say, to be honest

And so, I was like scared

‘cause I really wanted to keep that love

And now, like tons of people hate me, so I’m not worried anymore

I’m like, “Oh, okay, well

If you like me, you like me

If you don’t, you don’t, so”

There are things that I regret,

but I don’t know if I would change them because everything that happened that I regret like made me the way I am

And like, everybody says that and it’s pretty cliche, but it’s pretty true

So I don’t know

I feel like every situation that I’ve been in where, you know, maybe I wasn’t being the best that I could, I think I learned from it

See [laughs]

One of those [laughs]

Just another one of those stupid little, “Oh, I’m really smart and I really know”

of course, I had a regret, dude

Don’t be so sad It’s such a waste of time

[Billie sighs]

Don’t post everything you think

This poor kid [laughs]

Oh, my gosh

Don’t take anything for granted

Don’t ever come off stage during this year and think, “Ah, I didn’t really like that show

I didn’t really” Nope

Nope

And by the way, I’m never doing that again

When shows are allowed,

every show is gonna be the best show I’ve ever done

Oh, boy You know what’s funny?

It’s so funny how fast we get used to things

It’s kind of scary ‘cause you think, you know, when you don’t have something, you think like, “Oh, my God, when I have that in front of me, I’m not even gonna get used to it

It’s gonna be so exciting and new”

And it’s exciting for like two seconds and then it’s not

And it’s super weird

I don’t mean shows I just mean everything in general

It takes one second to get used to stuff because that’s what we’re meant to do is adapt

I wish that I could actually tell that year ago Billie because boy was I suffering not playing shows and not seeing fans in real life and, you know, being able to actually be with them for real and not through a screen

So it’s been amazing, but it’s so crazy how fast I just like picked it all right back up, you know?

I feel like everything is permanent all the time

And it’s not things go in waves and things happen and things stop and then they start and it’s like, you just have no idea what’s to come ever

And I think, just try to be aware of the amazing things you have going on right in the moment instead of later because even though then,

you know, I felt like a year ago now, like nothing was good and I had nothing I liked to do and there was nothing that was

And there was so many things that now I look back and I’m like, “Ah, that was cool”

And it’s just so weird that we don’t realize what’s in front of us at all until it’s not

It’s very weird

My family I’m always talking to my family

Always

[scoffs] Every second of my life

My mom and dad still come on tour with me

Finneas still comes on tour with me every day

Pretty much every day

We’re always together, always talking, always, you know, whatever

It’s great I love my family

I am so lucky to have my family right now

Both of my parents every day, for sure

I mean, I guess some days go by when I don’t, but pretty much every single day

And like Finneas, pretty much every day

Again, some days go by right now

But my family is still just as involved as they have always been in all the good ways

I love my family dearly

Fruitvale Station

It’ll always be up there

But I recently saw a movie called “I Origins”

which was so, so good

I had no idea what it was and I just

Finneas showed it to me randomly in the airport

And I just, it was amazing

Five Grammys

One, two, three, four,

five

Six, seven [laughs]

Performed at the Oscar’s,

met like every celebrity that’s ever existed

And it was the most overwhelming, insane, surreal thing I’ve ever experienced

I went to the BRITs I won a BRIT

It was amazing I performed

We recorded the “Bond” theme song and working with Hans Zimmer and the orchestra to record it

Completely surreal and amazing

Gosh, it’s been a crazy couple of years, man

I made an album

I put out an album I did get two more Grammys

The documentary came out That was terrifying

I went to the “Bond” premiere in London, which was amazing

I’ve never seen something so crazy I met the royal family

I put out a book I did an Amazon special

I put out a movie with Disney

which was called “A Love Letter to Los Angeles”

which was amazing

I’m launching a fragrance

which is the most exciting thing to me

No disrespect to all the other things I’ve accomplished, but that’s very exciting

I was a host at the Met Gala

which was an unbelievable

opportunity [laughs] thing I got to do

And I wore a big, beautiful dress made by Oscar de la Renta, who I said at the beginning of the conversation of “Let’s make a Met Gala dress”, “You have to stop using fur

because if you don’t, I am not working with you”

That was also thanks to my mom for being with me on that one and fighting for it with me

So I got Oscar de la Renta to stop using fur completely

And that was a really, really big, big thing for me

And I hope that

more brands

follow along with being environmentally conscious and try to help the world instead of make it worse

So, yeah

The shows are like the one thing that I feel like I’ve ever been good at

I know that sounds stupid,

but it’s like the only thing I’ve ever done that made me feel like I belonged

Keeping my family safe and,

you know, staying up

Cute thing to say

I second that, for sure

I was really just falling apart, not being able to do shows because they are the thing that makes me feel the best that I am

It feels like the best that I can be when I’m on stage

And getting to do that again, I was like rewound like I’m a music box,

that I can be in a bad mood before a show and then come off stage and I’m completely rejuvenated

It like winds me up It’s crazy

So, yeah, I agree with that one

I’ve had some conversations with Bieber about this

Ariana has been really cool about stuff

Even like Katy Perry told me

that I could reach out to her whenever

Gaga has said it to me before

It’s, you know, it’s nice to hear from people that like have gone through this and know what it’s like

I guess I turned to my mom, honestly, the most in this period

I feel like no matter all the people that have, you know, similar things that I’ve been through or have similar lifestyles or have, you know, advice to give,

I feel like my mom still beats them all [chuckles] Even though she’s new to this just as I am, you know, meaning fame and this kind of world

But my mom has a very good way of looking at the world and she’s the main person that I go to and like literally, like the almost the only person

So, my mom

Face recognition Like there’s no home button

What the heck?

They’ve made monograms crazy

What the hell is a monogram?

A hologram is what I meant

It’s crazy that you can charge your phone by like putting it on that little disc

Robots doing stuff

The vaccine, dude Hell fucking yeah

I really, really urge you

If you are not already vaccinated, please get vaccinated

It’s not just for you, you selfish bitch

It’s for everyone around you

Take care of the people around you, man

Protect your friends, protect your children, protect your grandparents, protect anyone you walk by

Brockhampton

Tierra Whack is sick

My favorite artist is Tekno

I’ve been loving some Arlo Parks

My favorite artist at the moment is The Dø who like changed my life and perspective on music

Last year, it was like one of their albums

I think they only have two albums

One is called “A Mouthful”

and one is called “Shake Shook Shaken”

“Shake Shook Shaken” was my main source of inspiration during the making of Happier Than Ever” the album

Last year, all summer, I would just listen to it to and from Finneas’ house when we would make the album and then I’d drive around and I’d go swimming and I’d play it

And it like changed my life, that album, and it still does

And “A Mouthful” has also changed my life as of this week

My brother’s my best friend

My brother is my best friend

My best friend is Finneas, but he is also my brother

We got Drew, we got Zoe, we got Laura, we got Shark

We got my family, my brother

Those is my best friends

I got a lot of good friends

Finneas is definitely one of my best friends

My mom, my dad, blank, blank,

blank, blank, blank, blank, blank are the other best friends [chuckles] A tattoo, maybe?

No face tattoos

The only tattoos I want to get

are the ones that barely anyone could see

I did get a tattoo

But you won’t ever see it

Lied again [chuckles]

I have three tattoos now

I have one here that says “Eilish”

Yes, I love myself

I have one here, big boy here, which is a dragon

And then I just got this a few weeks ago which is some fairies that are from a book that I had growing up

A little fairy book called “Fairyopolis”

They’re like my little guardian angel fairies

I love tattoos

My mom has her hands on her head

Look at the way she’s sitting

Rude, mom! Be supportive

And my mom hates tattoos

No, I’m not gonna be all tatted up, but I, you know, have some more ideas

Right now, I feel pretty satisfied

I feel like in a good zone with them

I felt the urge for a while

And now I’m like, “Ah”

Give me a little more time and then I’ll get another one

But I got the dragon right after last year’s

All I had, the last one was this little guy

Soda did this one Lucy did this one

Dragon did this one

Amazing people

First thing that came to mind is like, when my feet are close to the bottom of the bed

That’s the scariest part of my day every day

I jump from like two feet away from my bed onto the bed

And if my feet are too close to the bottom under my bed, I go, [gags]

Like, I can’t help myself I gag

It’s disgusting It creeps me out

Oh, it creeps me out so much

That’s why like all the furniture at my house, there’s nothing underneath

They all go to the ground

I made that very, very clear

When I was getting all my furniture, I was like, “Please don’t get anything with space underneath”

So all my chairs, my couches, my bed frame, it all goes all the way to the ground

There’s no storage

I don’t I would rather lose the storage space under my bed than have to step next to the bottom of my bed

You did ask

I don’t really get scared of like scary things, you know?

Like I had a huge Anaconda

It literally almost choked me to death

That was so much fun

So much fun

I guess that

What is the scariest thing I’ve ever done?

Fallen in love

What?

My relationships bring me a lot of joy

Bads bring me a lot of joy

Like the things that like just automatically bring me joy are rain and clouds

and like mist and fog

Like these things are They just

I feel happy

I have seasonal affective disorder but the opposite where I am so happy in gloomy weather and I am pretty miserable in hot, sunny, blue sky weather

Very seriously

I find myself pretty depressed in the summertime just because of the weather

and other things but just that’s initially the thing

Yeah

Being on stage makes me feel incredibly powerful

There’s a part in my show where I get on a lift that like takes me over the crowd and I like lean over the edge and look down

And that is a kind of power that no one should feel

Whoosh It makes me feel literally invincible

It’s crazy

I don’t know Clothing?

Like clothing makes you feel powerful and it can also make you feel very, very weak

So that’s a big thing

Little things, man

Ooh Do I feel grown up?

For the most part, yeah

I feel like I’ve felt very grown up this year

And I really like it I like growing up a lot

I loved being young and I still am young, but I loved being a teenager

And I kind of have always dreaded growing up and getting older

and it’s always been really scary to me, but I’ve enjoyed the hell out of it

I love it

I love being able to do things on my own and have my own freedom and my own choices and my own,

you know, right to things

It’s very exciting

My mommy, come here

This is my mom She is sick as a booty

• I don’t mind I can stay here that long

I love you

• I love you too

• Hello, baby

• His grandma

• I love you so much

♪ I love you so much ♪

• Come here [chuckles]

Join me

Ah

• I love you, Billie

• My sweet momma

Love you dearly

We don’t have the idiot dog with us this year

• I love watching you do this every year

• He’s at home farting,

stinking up the yard

Love you too [laughs]

Love you

Funny

You’re funny

Peace!