بخش 11

Show me your ugly shit. That’s where I’m gonna learn. I’m gonna learn. I’m gonna learn from the dark, nasty shit that we all have, that we’re all want to just scoot under a fucking rug and say that it doesn’t exist. We all have it.

This is just my story. We all have it, so the only way to fucking overcome it is to face it. Deal with it. Overcome it.

Now you said this I created Goggins, the guy who can take everything. I’m comfortable being very un-fucking-comfortable. Tell us about that.

So, like I talk about a lot, when I came up, I was born David Goggins. David Goggins was a young man, a young kid, that didn’t really know true reality, was a kid that wasn’t able to handle a lot of things.

Me knowing that, me knowing that my foundation was broken, I had to rebuild a whole foundation.

I had to pick up this fucking crooked-ass house that was me, pick it up with one hand, get all this fucking concrete, I had to fucking lay this fucking land nice and flat, get all this shit out, and rebuild this foundation, and lay this fucking house back on a nice foundation.

That foundation now is Goggins.

I had to recreate myself to a man that I wanted to be, not what the world made me, not what life made me. Life made me a scared, timid, insecure, afraid kid.

And when you’re a man, and you look at that mirror every fucking day of your life, and you do not like the reflection in it, if you choose to live in that, that is your fault.

We have the ability to recreate ourselves, and I decided to recreate myself in the form of Goggins.

And that is a person that said, I’m not gonna be this, this guy that’s insecure and afraid, all that sort of stuff. I want to be this guy. I want to be my own hero.

I want to a guy that I look up to. I want to see me and be proud of me. I want to look in that reflection and be proud of me. But the only way I’m gonna do that is all of that big sack full of shit, that big satchel of shit that my life had.

I had to start emptying it. And David Goggins couldn’t do that. That’s much too frightening, man. Goggins had to go back there and say, I got this shit. Let’s go. Let’s man the fuck up.

So that’s where Goggins comes from. It’s a person I had to create to start handling how to fix David Goggins.

And that’s the important thing, right, you’re not saying celebrate yourself, or embrace your authenticity, and none of that garbage.

You’re saying, look, we have shit we’re have to deal with.

Yes.

We got to figure out who we want to be. We gotta make sure that the foundation of that house is stable.

That’s right.

And then we gotta move in that direction, through the suffering.

I’m not saying go in your own ass and kiss it, by any means. That’s not it. I am saying love yourself. Be proud of yourself, but you have to be able to go back and fix your life. No one’s gonna help you out.

No one. Like, I believe, there’s a lot of theorists out there. There’s theorists that go into a library, take a lot of classes, read a lot of books on the mind.

They read about the mind. They know how it’s supposed to work in situations. I became a practitioner. And a practitioner is a person that doesn’t read about it, actually does it, and then studies it while he’s in it.

So my knowledge doesn’t come from reading a book that someone wrote that says this is how it’s supposed to be, someone that never even lived it, but they read about it somewhere.

And they took that theory and made another theory, and another theory, and another theory.

I’m the practitioner, who say, you know what, I’m gonna go in hell with my notebook and my pen, and I’m going to sit in this motherfucker, and I’m gonna see what my mind does here, how my mind processes.

But instead of leaving hell, because you can’t get any data that way.

There’s no data when you leave. The real fucking answers come when you stay, so I have to say here to get the answers to what’s gonna up here.

So everything I talk about is not something that I read, it’s something that I lived. And I got the chance to go back through my mind and see how my mind operated in hell. And that’s how I got these answers.

I’d say, oh, man, when it was hour 72 of Hell Week, and I had another fucking two days to go, and my body was broken, and all wanted to do was leave, what made me stay? Well how did you stay?

So I figured out what the mind was doing. It starts to ask you all these questions, and a lot of theorists don’t understand that.

A lot of theorists don’t really know what the mind is doing in there.

They’ve read about it, but I’ll tell you what it does, because I became a practitioner. I know what the mind does in hell.